day137

Internet down again, though at least this time it went down at such a time that I was able to drive to the Improving office in time for standup, so I got to do that, which is nice. It came back up when the tech support over the phone did something to it remotely, but I stayed at the office until lunchtime. And there is still a technician coming to my house.

Today’s theme is positivity. I don’t know why this isn’t the very last one. Living with depression is not easy. I can’t remember if i was on my meds for it when I took this assessment or not, but that would explain why this didnt’ come in dead last. I don’t feel down all the time anymore, but certain things will trigger an episode. politics. I was very worried about the election. Still am somewhat, given the cheeto-in-charge’s refusal to accept his loss. A coup is possible, and there would be nothing I could do about it. I shudder to think about it. Even writing about it here is a bit much. I need to change the subject.
Positivity. Not something I’m really that good at. I tend to think of the worst case scenario. It’s one thing that makes me good at QA, but does tend to intrude a bit into daily life. People who are good at Positivity tend to be upbeat and congtaiously enthusiastic. They get others excited about what they’re going to do. I’m not enthusiastic like that. I do have enthusiasms. I get an idea and sometimes I run with it; there’s nothing else i can focus on.